Not so great news

I'm waiting for dad and Neysa to come back from doing some more testing thinking about the news Dr. Gupta just gave us. He says the creatinine levels are "stuck" and was wanting to know if dad's levels were ever lower than 2 before we left CO. We didn't know because we didn't bring any of that paperwork. Apparently when the levels are up they can go back down if they were down before. In the last two days they have not moved from 2.6 and they've been steadily going down since we arrived. So Dr. Gupta says there's a possibility that dad could need a kidney transplant in a year or so if the liver transplant does not correct the problem. From what I understand the kidneys are compensated when a person has advanced liver disease. They are basically putting in overtime causing them distress. So, the liver transplant could correct the problem or we could also be in the same boat needing a kidney after all this is over. So, in our prayers we will continue to ask that dad be healed and that his body becomes healthy again especially before the surgery. Dr. Gupta says this does not change the surgery date but he will have a kidney specialist come in and meet with us soon.
I could only imagine how awful dad felt in hearing this news. Dad has been a little more emotional lately and Neysa says it's part of the disease. He didn't cry but said "shit, that's all I need right now". We gave him some encouragement but somehow I don't really feel that was enough. Dad's a fighter and I really don't ever see him giving up, but for a split second how could he not be thinking he might as well give up? I know I would.
So we continue on in our day trying not to dwell on this. We want to think positively and recognize that everything is going to turn out just fine. Dad's looking forward to going for a walk outside today. I hope we can make it happen.